Live YOUR Life, I'll Live MINES
I realized I CARE WAY TOO MUCH when it comes to my Loved ones. I somehow end up making their problems, my own. And it finally began to weigh me down.. The stress took its toll on me. I was a mess. Man, I don't know how Psychiatrists can handle it! All I know is, I take pride in knowing that I'm someone my friends and cousins can turn to and seek advice from or just simply vent at. And I'm never one to judge, but I'm one to want what's best for them, no matter what.
That's where it gets bad because I get so caught up in being there for them. Always at the sidelines, holding up my hand painted sign; cheering and supporting them all the way with whatever decision they make. Except, I too often forget to be there for myself, until after all is said and done. And call it martyrdom or whatever, but it didn't really bother me. I was content with seeing to my friend's and family's happiness because their happiness is my happiness.
It's not like anyone held me back; in reality I HELD MYSELF BACK. I have no one to blame and I don't want to be blaming anyone. It's just about time I focus more on the "Woman in the mirror" and stop living my life on the sidelines. At the same time, I'll stop expecting so much out of others, and start expecting so much more for myself.
Now, I'm still gonna care and be there; an extra hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on and be their very own Dr. Phil or Personal Stylist if need be. I just won't be so involved anymore. I'm stepping back and being less affected. Hopefully it all works out. Wish me luck!
That's where it gets bad because I get so caught up in being there for them. Always at the sidelines, holding up my hand painted sign; cheering and supporting them all the way with whatever decision they make. Except, I too often forget to be there for myself, until after all is said and done. And call it martyrdom or whatever, but it didn't really bother me. I was content with seeing to my friend's and family's happiness because their happiness is my happiness.
It's not like anyone held me back; in reality I HELD MYSELF BACK. I have no one to blame and I don't want to be blaming anyone. It's just about time I focus more on the "Woman in the mirror" and stop living my life on the sidelines. At the same time, I'll stop expecting so much out of others, and start expecting so much more for myself.
Now, I'm still gonna care and be there; an extra hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on and be their very own Dr. Phil or Personal Stylist if need be. I just won't be so involved anymore. I'm stepping back and being less affected. Hopefully it all works out. Wish me luck!
