the first & last picture of me and Paula taken on May 2009
RIP my Goddaughter Paula
The day I found out that she had passed away was on Wednesday; September 30. My momma had picked me up from school and she told the news inside the van. I felt like a mood-ring with all the emotions that rushed through me. I was shocked, then sad, and then angry. Angry at the fact that she died at the young age of 10. I had only physically met her twice; in 2007 and when my family and I went to the Philippines this year.
I'm very thankful that I at least got to know her some because she was such a little sweetie. I still smile when I remember the time I gave her a Hannah Montana bag and a Disney Minnie Mouse Tee. She pranced around her cousins, showing of the presents I gave her! And she cheekily told them that they couldn't touch her presents that "Ninang Johnalyn" gave her because they might make it dirty. Ninang means Godmother in Tagalog and I became Paula's Godmom or "Ninang" through her mom; my cousin.
It's times like these when I remember that LIFE IS PRECIOUS. That things really shouldn't be taken for granted. Yet, we do take things for granted everyday! It's crazy.. So now, I'm going to try and live my life everyday like I have Cancer. Imagine if you found out, right now, that you have cancer. Wouldn't you look at life, your life, differently and want to do as much for yourself as well as others around you; now that you know that you only have a limited amount of time left? I always end up thinking of Queen Latifah in Last Holiday, she frees herself from any inhibitions and lives her life to the fullest. Just think of it this way. Do you really need to be diagnosed with a terminal illness to make you value everyday that you're alive? We live our lives everyday in denial, like we're never going to die. But we all will, at some point. So why not cherish what life has to offer for us?
I DARE YOU TO LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE YOU HAVE CANCER!
